Spotting Mental Illness Fakers Online

So, tonight, I did some research after reading something that struck my curiosity. It turns out that there are literally folks who fake having a mental illness online for sympathy. I don’t feel particularly offended by these folks because I know the truth will become apparent eventually, and I do feel sorry for them. Some…

Mindfulness Movement

After writing the post about McDonald’s, I opened my new Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT) classroom workbook and re-read the goals for mindfulness and saw that walking can be considered mindful movement. I decided to get out of my sunken apartment and out in the sun for a while. I did not want for the stupid…

Ghetto McDonald’s. RAGE.

So, I had this brilliant idea to sit in a McDonald’s this morning to listen to lectures and drink coffee—along with a coke and eat a plain biscuit. On the way to the restaurant, my stomach started feeling unwell so I decide to get everything to go.  The woman in the drive-thru tried to hand me a…

Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger…

During an eye appointment, I popped another Ritalin. I took a long-lasting Concerta (Ritalin) very early this morning, but by 3 pm I was fading and sleepy. I took it and washed it down with a large McDonald’s coffee. I think this shocked me back to life! The sun was scorching as I entered the…

Squatters Get the Finger

Two unwelcome squatters, depression and laziness, have taken up residence in my brain presently. This morning my blood was drawn for thyroid labwork; I am certain that my TSH is high, meaning that my current thyroid replacement hormone is too low. I went from walking 4-6 miles per day to no miles per day. I…

The Struggle With Medication…Memory Loss

I had my therapy appointment this morning, and for some reason I actually feel less motivated after the session than I normally do. I began a walk and then decided to turn back early. I think I am burned out on walking my normal route. I feel too tired to watch lectures. I slept nearly…

Stability is Good. Feels Weird Though.

I’ve taken a little time off blogging as the girls have been home, and we have been busy. We went to see Spider Man Far From Home last Friday, went to an art museum on Saturday, and I had to take my youngest to spend time with a friend and to see a movie on Sunday while…

Oh, So Hot. 4th Plans. Thoughts on Love.

I walked 3.75 miles in the heat and beneath an unforgiving sun. I opted for shorts today and sprayed myself down with SPF 50 because my legs haven’t seen sunlight in years. I wore a long-sleeved shirt and hat because I noticed that my arms and decolletage were becoming sunburned during earlier walks. I thought…

Feeling Better

I’m feeling better. Less in my head. The girls are back home, and I woke up to them being grouchy to one another. After spending a week in a silent home, I didn’t mind it too much. There are television shows on Hulu that I save to watch with my youngest daughter; the oldest doesn’t…

Depression & Ivan Ilych

I think I have been experiencing mild to moderate depression which is normal after experiencing mania. I have given some thought to adding Prozac back to my cocktail. In the past, my other psychiatrist thought antidepressants, including Prozac, were destabilizing me. I think I was destabilized because I was on anticonvulsants which are not as…